What am I?

I am not a blogger, I am terrible at grammar, always have been. I am not great at making stories sound interesting, i do not have a giant vocabulary. I am not rich, I do not live in a fancy house. I am not big at social media, I do not have a ton of friends unless you count my family and mother. My hair and appearance is not always put together. I am not perfect. I am however, human. I AM A DAUGHTER, to an amazing single mother who is my mom and my best friend. I AM A CRAFTER, and even though my husband, daughter, and i live in a 1 bedroom, 900 sq ft apartment and struggle to pay bills I try and make it and everything in it beautiful. I AM A WIFE, we have our fair share of fights and issues, but we always get through together. I AM A CHRISTIAN, i may not be the best christian, i may miss church occasionally, but i love my Lord Jesus Christ and i know he loves me. Last but not least, I AM A MOM. I am new mom, but i strive to be a good one. I am a diaper-changing, laundry-washing, dinner-making, bath-giving, big-time-loving momma bee. I am working every second of everyday and striving to make sure my daughter is happy, healthy and well raised and loved. I may not always have time for a shower and my socks and outfits may not perfectly match, the house isn't always spotless, but i wouldn't trade any of it for the world. I wouldn't trade the early morning Walmart runs, the poopy diapers, the late sleepless nights, the spit-up stained silk blouses or the no me time, because the second I look into that little girls giant sparkly blue-green eyes I know with out a doubt, this is who i am meant to and want to be. I am a busy buzzing momma bee. 

lazy mom confession

Watching TLC's Hoarding: Buried Alive, I have come to the conclusion that i might be a slight hoarder, or at least one in the works. Is my home unlivable? No. Is my life completely overwhelmed with stuff? No. Am I somewhat disorganized and do i tend to hold on to things of no value or need? Yes. I have realized in my last 2 hours of vegging out on the couch, watching this eye opening and somewhat disgusting show, that it is time for a major lifestyle change! Staring at the clean, unfolded laundry near the washer and dryer...glancing at the unorganized, overwhelming kitchen pantry and cabinets...being baffled by the explosion of what is supposed to be a closet...I realize this all needs to change before it becomes something worse, much worse. I am not a dirty person by any means, dirt is icky and bugs freak me out! I am however a little lazy at times and a bit, OK a BIG procrastinator. Ever since I was little i would put off things and projects til the last minute, of course i would ace them, but none the less i guess i would get some kind of adrenaline rush of some sort. I felt as though i produced my best work when i would be in a crunch. Well procrastination is all fine and dandy some times, but when it comes to simple tasks such as putting up the laundry, procrastination can turn into something bigger, pretty much in Lehman's terms laziness. Yes, I use the excuse "Zovia was fussy all day! I didn't have time, now it's bed time and i am tired, I'll do it in the morning." I'm sure many people use the excuse as Scarlett  O'Hara says "fiddle dee dee, I'll think about it tomorrow!" Well what about the other wise words by Thomas Jefferson "don't put off to tomorrow what you can do today"? Well I think it's time i started listening to Mr. Jefferson more then Miss Scarlett! Even though I am more like Scarlett in the Southern-Belle-Diva aspect, I think Mr. Jefferson's words were a little more correct in the grand scheme of things, at least when it comes to this. If i don't change my everyday lifestyle now, who knows where it could be in a few years. I want my little daughter to be like i was when i was little; crying if i had a stitch out of place in my clothes, upset when people would come over and mess with my things. Looks like I am going to have to buck up and get organized and set up a plan to keep it that way daily!Well time for me to get off my butt and start organizing!  Thanks Hoarding: Buried Alive for kicking my tired lazy mom butt into gear!  http://www.facebook.com/hoarding

SPLISH SPLASH!

Well i have learned recently mommy's intuition is the only thing to go by! People will tell you the dos and don'ts, but you only need to go by your gut. Its nice to get others opinions sometimes but not all of them are right (no matter how much they think they are) anyways my point is, i took my daughter ZOVIA swimming for her first time this weekend (even though many said not to being shes only 4 months) but needless to say she absolutely loved it!!! She was a little apprehensive at first but warmed up to it right away.

 To think i almost let others opinions ruin this amazing day!